“Dear Mrs. Berry,
Due to the nature of my letter, I’ve given an alias I go by. Sorry for however this troubles you.
When I first came to Eorzea from Doma, I dreamed of the life I would lead here much like the majority of my kind. Had I known what I would end up doing back then, I would have stayed and lived as a recluse. Ever since I stepped foot in Ul’dah, my life has been a downward spiral. What little money I had was taken from me. With nowhere else to go, I took to a life of crime. I found myself in a group that used me as a ‘cook’. The products of my ‘cooking’ hurt and impacted a large number of people.
Besides this example, I’ve done bad things. Very bad things. Does this mean that I’m a bad person? That the Twelve view me with as much disregard as they do towards a morbol? I did them under duress and had no choice, but when I gaze into the darkness at night, I’m haunted by what I’ve done. Is there any way that I can redeem myself to the Twelve?
It is understandable to me after reading this why you have chosen to use an alias. I do not condone what you have done.. However, I can not condemn you for the choices you have had to make after such a tough experience in life. Just as well, it is not my place to judge you nor would I even begin to make an attempt at doing so.
It matters not to the Twelve if you have done terrible things in your lifetime.. But that you atone for them in an appropriate manner. I know not your situation nor will I ask you to share it if you are not comfortable; the Twelve, however, sees all. It speaks volumes that you are stricken by guilt from what you’ve been made to do. I believe wholeheartedly that were you to attempt to atone, the Twelve would forgive you in time and your soul, may you be blessed in your atonement that you may rise to one of the Heavens, would be swept away from the possibility of falling to the deepest Hell.
I would suggest that you begin making amends for the crimes you have committed. If they are incredibly severe, I might suggest that you give yourself over to a sanctuary to avoid persecution at the hands of others.. Though I am unsure if such advice is truly adhering to the law of the lands. Nevertheless, your soul and your mortal body would be unable to make amends if you were taken in by authorities and summarily executed.
If you are still unsure of how to atone for your wrongdoings, you may thus send me another letter or a more private one to my location at Nymeia’s Adytum. However, you have the means and the will to do so. I beg that you change your life before you truly can not rectify what you have done. In Nymeia’s name, I pray that you will turn your fate into something more worthwhile of a person of your heritage. And do get out of Ul’dah.
May Nymeia guide you.
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